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therapy messed me up worse?

im 15 yrs old, and im sort of paranoid about ppl of poer talking about me behind my back. when i was in 1st grade, i was diagnosed with adhd,and both my mom and my teacher were on my case all the time. i remeber being annoyed and frustrated because they drugged me for a while, then i went off the drugs and i still made good grades. yet they wouldnt leave me alone so i felt like i was doing something wrong all the time and didnt know what. i had some very traumatic things happen in my life, which i went to therapy for when i was about 9-12. they were also on my case,which upset me so badly that i started having panic attacks. she then told me i wasnt adhd but ocd and she tried to drug me up again. however, something happened right before i was suposed to go back and i didnt get to go. i quit having panic attacks as soon as i stopped therapy and people were leaving me alone. now, my boyfriend and i think that all of this kind of messed me up. my mother says its up to me if i want to go see a theripst again, i dont even though i really want someone to talk to. because i couldnt deal with being treated like a lab rat ever again. i want to wait till im 18 because i still have flashbacks and very occasional panic. my mother understands, she wants me to go but isnt going to make me. i think i will survive 3 more years

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1. You could go to a talk therapist who doesn't medicate her/his patients. Only psychiatrists and MDs can medicate. If you go get three referrals and check out all three therapists to see who is the most empathetic. An empathetic person will not push you further than you can go. Just tell the person that you get panic attacks when pushed. It is hard to afford therapy when you are 18 and out on your own, so it may be best to deal with as many issues as you can before leaving home. It will help you get the best start in life.
2. You taking meds is up to you.Maybe you need to tell your therapist that you would like to learn coping skills but prefer to not be on medication.
3. Yeah. Messed me up too, except I'm 23... older now. You'll find your way out of it eventually, and then you can look back and be happier and more determined.